liFe..

Monday, October 02, 2006

*sigh* school has started..new modules to take..new lecturers to meet..actually was looking foward to the start of school as i was really quite sick of rotting at home..but after a few days..i am having regrets T_T
the modules i am taking this semester are really a notch up from the last semester..much harder to understand..but that i can understand..as we progress..the harder things become~ but what i really cannot take are the new lecturers..they seriously suck~*
a monotonous lesson with nobody actually understanding what they are saying..and we are expected to understand what the lecturers are saying..and if we do not..they simply point out to us that we have the handouts given by them..expecting us to derive the answer from the handouts ourselves..with them explaining the lesson..i rather stay at home and look through the handouts by myself..i would probably learn more rather then attending lesson and stay throughout the whole lecture without understanding a single thing..
so far..the only modules i understand and like are Critical Reasoning Skills and IDEAS..but well..this is life and we cannot get what we want all the time..so we have to adapt~
trying desperately to adapt to the new modules and lecturers because i really desperately need to score better this semester..or i will be applicable to retain..and that is seriously not what i want..recently knew that i failed a module quite badly in the mid-year-exams..though it is a year-long module..but every mark counts..so currently rather stressed up over my studies..not really fun having all these worries in your head bugging you all the time..but i only got myself to blame..studying really is not my thing~*

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world

so just hoping i have the motivation to keep studying throughout this semester..in the hope of having better grades at the end of the year..thus pulling up my 'fantastic' results last semester~

10:10 PM...i walked away