hais~* starting to lose the motivation to go to school and to study..my body is in the lecture hall but my mind is wandering somewhere else..words come in from one ear and go out the next..beginning not to really care what the lecturers are talking about..going to school is starting to be a chore and a burden..not something i want to do everyday..going to class late..not paying attention..slacking around at home not doing any work or revising..my everyday life~ just cant seem to be able to focus in class..and very soon i gave up trying..studying is at the back of my mind..everytime i go home..it is not a place for me to study..cant really study at home..there is absolutely no motivation to study at home..especially when i am alone..temptation..procastination..it all comes in..guess i need people to study together with for me to be able to concentrate..but..now..the motivation is gone..dont really know why..slowly bit by bit..it slips away..the eagerness and willingness and anticipation at the beginning was seeping away..little by little..bit by bit..but surely..slipping away.. i know that even though studying is not my piece of cake..but i got to at least try..aim for the best that i can do..despite telling others to do that..i myself absolutely cannot keep to that..making me feel like a hyprocrite..a quitter..
Lines ever more unclear I'm not sure I'm even here The more I look the more I think that I'm Starting to disappear
motivation..is that what i am truly looking for..a will to study..i guess that is a main objective..really need something to keep me going on..