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Monday, June 11, 2007

last days. before i start getting buried alive in books. two week break is here. with it comes the premonition of the MST. sigh. dont really have a choice. have to study to try to pull up my fantastic grades last year. which also means no more holidays for the semester. after the MST..school starts again. oh man. and just to mention ngee ann has finished their tests and exams already and the sutdents are happily enjoying their holidays. why do i feel so lethargic all of a sudden. sigh.
after talking to some friends. realised that i've not seen or heard from many old friends since they went off into JC or other institutes. others when i try to start catching up with them. they always seem busy or preoccupied in something else. often question myself. is this how its all going to end. when we go our seperate ways. we do our own stuff. where our friendships will just fade away till the point where we will just be acquaintances. people that you just smile and say hi to when you see them. is that all our friendship was to you.
even if you dont mind it all turning out this way. i do. you're my friend. and that. believe it or not. means alot to me. i care. even if you dont. so it just saddens me to see friendships fading away. to see people drifting away.

The homeless is still homeless, the poor is still poor,
yet we find billions of dollars to fund senseless wars.
And yes, we're fighting terrorism, what about the quiet racism,
divided among ourselves, somebody's crying for help.

1:06 AM...i walked away

6 Monday, June 04, 2007

actions speak louder then words. oh a phrase proved so true so many a time. but both your actions and words reflect upon your character. by the way you speak and the things you do..people will judge you according to that. with your mouth you say one thing whilst you do something else. how do you expect anyone to respect you after that. you seek to earn respect from your peers but you do not even respect others yourself. by trying to fit in with peers who seem "cool" or "hip" you imitate them..doing what they do..saying what they say. and so fixed upon your goal of fitting in..you do not even stop to consider whether what you are doing is right or wrong. you say that it is the environment and the social influence that affects you to do such things. that's just an excuse for having no self control. the choice has always been yours. you control yourself..not others control you. you take the first step..the decision is yours. don't blame others for your own wrong. take time and reflect. i have nothing else to say.
last week of school now. and after that..two weeks of holidays~* haa. ok have to admit. its just a study break before the real horror..mid semester tests. argh. better start revising and catching up on all those stuff i have missed or just not understood. thats seriously alot. its now or never..caught up in the mugging rush. haa. who am i kidding.

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park

1:35 PM...i walked away