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Saturday, July 28, 2007

finally decided to blog. given the circumstances where the workload is building up so much so that its killing me. with now five projects on the way and the finals just around the corner..i don't think i will be able to survive this onslaught.
not exactly that i am slacking around and not doing anything. i AM actually doing my projects..which by itself is a miracle already. but just when i thought that all this is tough and is pushing me to my limits..IT happened. with everything due next week..i completed two of my five projects..and that means completed everything. done. and roughly finishing up on the rest of them. then i lost a paper. the most important one too. where all the teacher's signatures are and where all my marks are recorded. which in fact means i've got to redo the entire thing within ONE lab session next week.
then. found out that another project that i had completed had a naming error in the process which means i have to redo the entire project too just to correct the error. two projects that i thought i had completed.
had only one thought at that point of time. to just give up and throw it off. just when i thought i had reached my limit. i was forced upon a whole new dimension of stress and pressure. i mean..come on!!
and that i havent even started on my revision. actually i couldnt be bothered right now. i'll be thankful enough if i can complete all my projects. on the verge of a breakdown. i mean..who would want to fail? i've done that and experienced first hand how bad that can be. but looking at the way things are right now. can't help but to feel down.

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

12:17 AM...i walked away

6 Thursday, July 12, 2007

with the exams over and done with..does not mean a break of any sort. straight after my exams sch started. and with an overwhelming load of work to do. lecturers just dumped four projects right on me. and to add to the workload..my final semester tests are in merely a months time. with so many projects and things to do. afraid will not really have the time to study properly for my finals.
now. my results. on the brighter note. its much better than usual. but. it still sucks. haa. i failed two modules and passed the remaining three. the fails were by a mere one to two marks. argh. but still..this kind of results aint bringing me anywhere. lousy grades. blah.
well well well. kind of trying to bring myself to get up in the morning to go for classes which i skipped ALOT of times already. however to my relief there were no warning letters sent to me. guess my lecturers are quite kind. but still need to get up and work on my attendance. late as it is in the semester. my attendance is kind of low..skipping loads of classes when i felt that they were too unsignificant.
lastly. hope that i wont crumble under the workload and succumb to temptation of just slacking off. caught up with many old friends though. smiles :) haa. motivation? or just desperation to pass my grades. i need it.

I don't know who you are
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

9:07 AM...i walked away